Some people, that live with constant pain, will need constant pain management. It can be a consideration from the very moment you wake. Personally, I use a combination of nerve blockers, and morphine to cope.
However, I try to only use the morphine in the winter months. It has a similar effect to me as burnout does, in terms of mental processing. So it’s an as needed option only unfortunately. Because of that, I can’t rely on it. Especially if I want to continue working, and I definitely do.
When the weather gets warmer I come off the morphine and try to cope without it. I’ve been doing this since my daughter was born. That’s not an easy task but I get to think clearer. At least until the pressure changes again around September time. Unfortunately I don’t have a choice then, the pain becomes too relentless, I need to take it.
This means that every year I have to go through morphine withdrawal. Freezing cold, physically shaking, headaches, nausea and vomiting, you know all the nice stuff.
I do it, because, I can be more mentally engaged. When it comes to working ... but also quality time with my family. That means the world to me, so if it means going through withdrawal to get that, I will.
I’m looking for a better option for pain relief this summer. Hopefully I’ll find something that can help me manage better. A pain killer that doesn’t kill my focus, more than it does the pain.
All our best and love
Ross Fraser and Jeni Dern
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