Different Perspective

How do you show autism is often seen from an neurotypical perspective? Well, that was the one thing I couldn’t figure out. Believe it or not, that came from the film ‘The Usual Suspects’. I thought if I showed one view long enough, people would make assumptions. I thought there would be a point where my cognitive ability was acknowledged and I was seen for that (actually it was my friend that said that bit). That’s what I have been waiting for. I knew I couldn’t keep up that pace. It is unobtainable because pain and sensory impact alone can cause major disruption. Every day is managed so carefully and negative impact of any sort has to be limited or at least accounted for. I pushed myself to my absolute limits to do this. Had countless meltdowns, panic attacks, PTSD episodes. I gave myself a concussion on several occasions. I broke my hand four times in a meltdown. (not helpful for a writer to be fair). I crashed so many times, but knew I had the support in place and environment. With that being said, it gave me a real chance of showing another side to autism. Then I could explain more of the realities. But only if my life’s challenges weren’t seen, not until I was seen, really clearly, for who I am ... that had to come first. I am not going to keep trying to take on and achieve more. That was far too much and I really wasn’t sure if I would cope this long, or at all to be honest. From here on out, I will mainly focus on Au-thentic online and Au-thentic media. I need to find a long term balance and I haven’t been able to do that in about a year. The good news is you will see a much more natural version of me from now on. The good and bad. I will talk about coping strategies and how I have achieved this. However, I need to recover right now. I’ve put so much pressure on myself for so long. I need to rest but hopefully I’ve made a lot of people think. I will be back with a post on April 2nd and just be my Au-thentic self from now on. Take care of yourselves everyone. I will try and catch up with comments when I’m back, but can’t focus at the moment to reply properly. All the best Ross www.mylifeautistic.com Words – Ross A Fraser Graphic Design App – Canva #NewLifeAutistic

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