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Community comment from Amber

I often wonder...


The voice of reason in my head, the narrator, if you will, is that of others voices, and not my own. Voices of criticism and toxicity that I’ve been exposed to throughout my life are what I hear when I make a mistake or mess up in anyway.


So I feel like I don’t even know my own self anymore. My own mind.


I am a mixture of everyone I’ve ever met due to mirroring, mimicking, and masking.


I know things about myself like the cognitive and emotional depths I have, my sentiments and intuitions.


I’ve just not seen that in anyone else. And I’ve never truly experienced what it is like to let it all out. That’s terrifying to me, to be so vulnerable, to be the lost self. But then I think of what I could accomplish if I did unmask. Especially in my talents, personal expression of self. In art and in life.


It’s confusing and scary.

… who am I?

Who would have I become without the voices that robbed me of my self identity.


All our best and love

Ross Fraser and Jeni Curtis

Mylifeautistic


Words and image – Community comment by Amber

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Mar 09, 2023


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mylifeautistic
Mar 09, 2023

Today’s post is a community comment from Amber, a recently diagnosed autistic adult. She views the world in a different way but because of synaesthesia, actually feels it in a different way too. We thought it was important to share a woman’s viewpoint today, for International Women’s Day. This is Amber’s first post, she not only wrote it but created the image as well. Understanding who you are after masking for so long takes time, but this is a giant first step for Amber, and we are so proud of her.

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