Alcohol

I have said that I hid from the age of thirteen because I never thought I’d fit in this world. However, I did keep trying. I went to work and tried to attend social functions, I just never felt comfortable. Impacted by instinctual responses I wasn’t aware of at the time. My solution was a bad one, because apart from anything else, it took all my money each week to maintain. I would go to work and often use a taxi to get home so I could get back as soon as possible. This was coupled with heavy drinking from about sixteen to about aged twenty six or twenty seven. I actually don’t like the taste of most alcohol but it quietened my head. It reduced the impact of the world around me. Unfortunately it required drinking to the point of that mental separation, all the time. I wouldn’t get drunk, unless it was an event with alcohol. Because I had drank all day just to ensure I could go and had drunk way too much in total. I lost jobs because of it, probably friends and relationships too. I do regret it, and often wonder if I hadn’t met my wife if I’d have stopped drinking. Finding a way to quiet your mind isn’t an answer. Finding a life that is comfortable, that works for you personally. That is the answer, because anything else just won’t feel right. You will always have to adjust for the life you have instead of just living it. My name is Ross Fraser and I was an alcoholic. If the world was better adjusted for an autistic or neurodivergent person, I genuinely don’t think I would have been. All my best and love Ross www.mylifeautistic.com Words – Ross A Fraser Graphic Design App – Canva #NewLifeAutistic

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